I've been really emo with myself with things happening lately and for things to come. I cant help but to feel these two years have been the fastest, confusing, and filled with uncertainty. Its like walking through a narrow pathway with endless turns and corners that every time i turned, something sad is waiting to surprise me and long before i could do anything comes the next few turns that could dissapoint me more or making me rejoice again. The rapid change of my emotions level are bothering me, at 1 point i could be so dissapointed with many things and then BAM! i'm so happy and before my smile ends BAM! My emotions fell faster than earth's gravity pulling down meteors. I know its part of life, but right at this moment, I just feel I cant take it anymore, I just wish time could pause or rewind.

There are several people and situations that i can identify as the reasons for this but you know 'la', I wouldn't wanna reveal it here. Ironically, this type of how-you-feel-but-you're-not-gonna-tell-what-happened post have always been something I dont like to read cause, I never know what ever happened and at times I do feel the writer kinda write it that way to seek for attention. I cant believe I'm writing it.......i guess I really need to release my frustrations this time through this method. Dont worry, if you dread to see your Jon in this emotional state, this kinda things dont happen often...........I'll be crapping here sometime soon again.

On a side note, with the way i feel recently, there is this longing to be at some place out of the city to enjoy fantastic view of the nature, the stars that lit the sky and others to just take my mind off things and be at peace. Not to mention, the fascinating pictures shown in national geographic magazines makes me wannna travel the world just to take a glimpse of how wonderful God's creation is.

Lazy to find those really cun photographs, but this one is one of the one i found in my pc. I think the green formation has something to do with how the iceberg in north pole reflect the light or something like tat. I forgot........